Monday, March 26, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
The Standing of Things - Part 5
I could, perhaps write volumes on all the things that have happened, lately. I'll take my own advise this time, and just pick a random place and let my my heart tell it from there.
I will begin with the parts that directly involve me, starting with the state of Moonlight's story. It's hard to grasp that it has already been almost two months since my character's wedding. We played out the aftermath, and the beginning of the honeymoon, before the outside world decided to impose itself on us. Life can be a real bastard, sometimes. It seems to like to mess with people's happiness. Real life issues forced a grinding halt to our RP, and in its wake, the complete hiatus of my now dear friend and RP partner. The situation was a great trial for him, and a very emotionally tasking time, for myself. Already weeks after our characters were to have come home, we shared a few final messages, before he left, and then it was weeks before I heard from him again.
I had a minor breakdown, during that time. Some days I would lose control of my feelings, and wind up crying, worrying about my friend, missing him, hating myself for not being able to help him. I didn't even have the heart to roleplay for over a week, but eventually I stabilized myself. By his request, I wove an explanation of the time we were away and what happened in the story, and reluctantly brought Moonlight home, without Lyra.
I have since, strengthened myself, and devoted my spirit, more than ever, to our home and our family of friends. Moonlight has become a strong presence in The Loft, and I have, in the out-of-character aspects of the group, pushing for a strong unification and keeping order to the best of my ability. I have stepped up, and asserted my role as a leader of this group. Perhaps I have inspired some of my pony friends, because the other founders have now taken similar actions. We have finally united under the cause of nurturing our home. These are hopeful times. Under the banner of our friendship and our love for each other, we have begun to grow and flourish. New arrivals, seem to show up weekly to our little chaos nexus. New stories are being made all the time, which have been both fun, and memorable, and a whole wave of new material, art and other such things, related to The Loft are all being brought to life.
These changes have not been without their sacrifices and hardships. Indeed, several of our members have had to endure heartache, and pain. We are a very emotional lot. It spills over into our RP from our real lives, and vice versa. Fiery hearts fuel heated tempers and tearful laments. Still, I feel if we can hold each other together, we'll be okay. There's a lot of love in this place, however love is truly a duality- absolute joy or absolute pain, all from the same feeling. The pain it makes is horrible, but I feel it is a worthy penance for the joy that love can bring.
We are in the final days of DreamSweet's Chaos Loft story. I wasn't around for the whole thing, which I kind of regret, but for what I have played, it has been a truly enjoyable experience. The story has been a beautiful tale of friendship and adventure. In these times, it has also contributed to the uniting of our residents. We need more things like this, I think. I will remember it fondly, and hope that it will not be the last tale our little blue colt will tell for us.
And now things as they are currently: After his long hiatus, my dear friend, Diego, has begun to show presence in The Loft channels again. It was very uplifting for me to see him again and get to talk to him. I still can't believe the wave of emotions I felt the night he logged in and we finally talked again. I was actually crying, as I told him how much I missed him, and how I was glad that he was starting to do better. I have come to realize that my spirit has really formed a very strong bond with his. I guess it makes sense. I mean, we have shared so much on a deep emotional level, filtered through our characters, and across many days of just chatting about whatever. Hell, he was largely responsible for my own spirit re-awakening, allowing me to be able to write and imagine with such vibrant force as I've not seen in many years. When you go from talking almost every single day with someone that stirs your soul to that degree, to absolute silence, it leaves a huge hole in your being. I know that he still has a lot going on, in his outside life, and some healing takes a long time. I understand this all too well. Our characters' story can wait, as long as it needs to, though. I'm just happy to have my friend back in my life.
I will begin with the parts that directly involve me, starting with the state of Moonlight's story. It's hard to grasp that it has already been almost two months since my character's wedding. We played out the aftermath, and the beginning of the honeymoon, before the outside world decided to impose itself on us. Life can be a real bastard, sometimes. It seems to like to mess with people's happiness. Real life issues forced a grinding halt to our RP, and in its wake, the complete hiatus of my now dear friend and RP partner. The situation was a great trial for him, and a very emotionally tasking time, for myself. Already weeks after our characters were to have come home, we shared a few final messages, before he left, and then it was weeks before I heard from him again.
I had a minor breakdown, during that time. Some days I would lose control of my feelings, and wind up crying, worrying about my friend, missing him, hating myself for not being able to help him. I didn't even have the heart to roleplay for over a week, but eventually I stabilized myself. By his request, I wove an explanation of the time we were away and what happened in the story, and reluctantly brought Moonlight home, without Lyra.
I have since, strengthened myself, and devoted my spirit, more than ever, to our home and our family of friends. Moonlight has become a strong presence in The Loft, and I have, in the out-of-character aspects of the group, pushing for a strong unification and keeping order to the best of my ability. I have stepped up, and asserted my role as a leader of this group. Perhaps I have inspired some of my pony friends, because the other founders have now taken similar actions. We have finally united under the cause of nurturing our home. These are hopeful times. Under the banner of our friendship and our love for each other, we have begun to grow and flourish. New arrivals, seem to show up weekly to our little chaos nexus. New stories are being made all the time, which have been both fun, and memorable, and a whole wave of new material, art and other such things, related to The Loft are all being brought to life.
These changes have not been without their sacrifices and hardships. Indeed, several of our members have had to endure heartache, and pain. We are a very emotional lot. It spills over into our RP from our real lives, and vice versa. Fiery hearts fuel heated tempers and tearful laments. Still, I feel if we can hold each other together, we'll be okay. There's a lot of love in this place, however love is truly a duality- absolute joy or absolute pain, all from the same feeling. The pain it makes is horrible, but I feel it is a worthy penance for the joy that love can bring.
We are in the final days of DreamSweet's Chaos Loft story. I wasn't around for the whole thing, which I kind of regret, but for what I have played, it has been a truly enjoyable experience. The story has been a beautiful tale of friendship and adventure. In these times, it has also contributed to the uniting of our residents. We need more things like this, I think. I will remember it fondly, and hope that it will not be the last tale our little blue colt will tell for us.
And now things as they are currently: After his long hiatus, my dear friend, Diego, has begun to show presence in The Loft channels again. It was very uplifting for me to see him again and get to talk to him. I still can't believe the wave of emotions I felt the night he logged in and we finally talked again. I was actually crying, as I told him how much I missed him, and how I was glad that he was starting to do better. I have come to realize that my spirit has really formed a very strong bond with his. I guess it makes sense. I mean, we have shared so much on a deep emotional level, filtered through our characters, and across many days of just chatting about whatever. Hell, he was largely responsible for my own spirit re-awakening, allowing me to be able to write and imagine with such vibrant force as I've not seen in many years. When you go from talking almost every single day with someone that stirs your soul to that degree, to absolute silence, it leaves a huge hole in your being. I know that he still has a lot going on, in his outside life, and some healing takes a long time. I understand this all too well. Our characters' story can wait, as long as it needs to, though. I'm just happy to have my friend back in my life.
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