It is of this creative spark that I am concerned. You see, my little corner of the world, isn't much but an actual little corner anymore...
That's it. That's all that remains. The shelf with all the things on it, is gone, the pictures are gone, my writing table and the part under my monitor are a chaotic mess of unkindled ideas. I had to give up the spaces occupied by those things in favor of the crib you see, to the left of the desk. (I really need a bigger house.) But I also really need to rekindle my spirit, and for that, change must happen. I have to turn this into something that sparks my emotions and my imagination once again...
My paints, my notes and my drawings, my ponies and my collectibles, all piled and boxed, and gathering dust. It's no wonder I can't come up with anything new, or finish anything old.
Today I resolved to do something. It's been four months since I last posted on this blog. It was even longer since I updated my Tumblr. That's a long time to have been stuck in a slump. It can't be allowed to continue like this! Somewhere along the way, all these things that brought me joy just sort of faded. There were many causes, but one of the worst offenders was the gradual diminishing of the spirit energy which surrounded me. This will be the first of a series of transformation posts. My plan is to start converting this little remnant, into something that once again radiates a spirit of artistic creation.
My dear friends in Luna's Loft deserve me at my best, and quite frankly, I haven't been. It's time I stepped up and changed not just my surroundings, but ME. I must find new inspiration, but at the same time I must push past all these inhibitions of mine and just MAKE STUFF! I'm always so afraid of how it will be taken, or if it would even be worthy of them. I'm obsessed with this perfection to such a degree that I have set unreal standards of myself. More than ever, I think I need their support. It's asking quite a lot of them, and I don't really feel I deserve it, but I must.
